This is gonna sound like im sucking my own dick a little bit but something ive noticed since ive started working in the past few years is people usually comment that im smart. Now i classify myself more as an idiot but not dumb but im starting to think maybe thats just my brain trying to fuck me over. Im 20 i dropped out of high school my junior year and went to try and be an electrician for a year but im a really anxious dude so when i got sent to a jobsite with a boss that liked to pick on and blatantly disrespect me i said fuck it all and quit. I got diagnosed with adhd so i didnt do great in trade school either but i was told by a lot of the people i worked with that they thought id make it far and that i was doing really good for a first year and i busted my ass every day so i was good on the jobsite im just really bad at doing school, especially online school.
I guess my point is ive hated every job ive ever worked at and its usually because i get anxious at work then go home and feel shitty about myself and im at a loss as to what to do. I think i would be able to do college if i found something i was actually interested in but everything feels so boring in a class setting. I sorta liked chemistry that was the only class i had an A in the year i dropped out but i dont know what id want to do with that. I make salads right now and it actually pays $5-6 more an hour than my job as an electrical apprentice and i work about half as hard but like oh my god i make salads for a living and ive been doing it for almost a year. What do you guys do? Im just looking for bearable careers that dont make me feel like a degen. I think im capable of doing something that matters but i have no idea what that is