Hi, I am a 21-year old student living abroad. I work a part-time job and receive a scholarship, that pays the bills and I can afford pretty much everything I need, including vacations – for some people that could sound like a good life – but it's not for me. I feel like I'm stuck in a loop of doing a shitty physical job – obviously can't find anything better since I am an immigrant and still learning the language – and then going to school where I feel like 80% of people is stupid and I simply don't belong there. The job and school suck out all my will to live – not that I have had much, I have always considered myself a pessimistic nihilist. But I wonder if if ever changes or is life about working and basically doing something that I hate?? Who even came up with the idea that we do have to work, I might just go live in the forest or go to jail I just don't want to do it anymore.