I have lived in some version of domestic violence my whole life.
I think I am too disabled to hold a job (ADHD, with probably some undiagnosed autism and learning disability).
I have started a freelancing business, and I have one client, with one or two pending clients (in the process of showing them what I can do).
But, I am scared I will never be able to support myself to live on my own. Unless I can make this freelancing thing work. Which I am trying to do.
But, why is life so always fucking hard? I feel like, whenever I tell people about my life experiences. They can’t relate.
I feel like, why did I have to end up this way? I know feeling sorry for yourself doesn’t help anyone.
But, I am running out of hope.
I keep being told, therapy can help. But, therapy doesn’t give me a roof over my head. It saps you from resources that, stops my dreams from wanting to be independent.
I feel like, I am trapped. I am over it.
I am over constantly trying and failing. Yes, therapy, maybe even ADHD meds could help. But, I don’t think it’ll help my learning difficulties. I don’t think it’ll help me to get more money.
I don’t think it’ll help me have a sustainable life.
I feel at a loss. And I am so over it. I, am definitely not the most positive person in the room right now. If it wasn’t obvious.
Joking, not joking. <3