im a nursing aide. ive been doing it for a year. i started off at 10 dollars at one nursing home, now im at 15 at another. im tired. i thought nursing was for me but i hate my job. i love my residents but i can't afford anything besides rent and gas and electric a few other bills (i commute 60 miles a day.) my partner pays half our bills but money is still so tight we get nothing special. i don't want to be in this field. it felt like a dream at first but i do everything for about 20 people a night. i walk them, feed them, bathe them, dress them, wipe their asses, toilet them, cut their nails, assess them medically, take vitals, roll them in their sleep every hour, check on them every 30 minutes. im exactly what this sub is titled: antiwork. i don't want to work at all. i have no desire to. it's so hard taking care of others when i can't take care of me. i have awful ptsd and anxiety and my health insurance at my job doesn't cover therapy and i can't afford an extra 85 dollar expense. i guess there's no point to this post. i have work in an hour.