On mobile so sorry if the formatting is weird. I don’t know if this is the right sub for this but I don’t know where else to put it. Hopefully someone here can help.
A little background: I have pretty severe ADHD and anxiety. It affects every single part of my life, but none moreso than my work/school life. I’ve always had issues with concentrating, staying focused, and staying motivated to do things that aren’t engaging. At the same time, highly active work environments stress me out so much that I also can’t complete tasks in front of me. Because of this, I haven’t been able to complete college and have had a really hard time sticking with jobs for long periods of time.
Current situation: I currently work a desk job doing social media for a small business. It’s low key, boring, but has been manageable for me for the past 6 months. My boyfriend and I (of 4 years) are looking to move out and hopefully buy a house as he makes really good income. I constantly feel guilty about how little I make compared to him but he never makes me feel bad about it. Recently, since we’re wanting to buy a house, he has asked me to think about seeking a full-time stable career job. I know to most people this doesn’t sound like a big ask, but for me it is. I desperately want to be able to do this and contribute as much as I can but I’m so stressed out about this. I don’t know what to do. I swear it’s not that I just don’t want to work. I do want to because I want to contribute. But I have no clue how I’m going to make this work. Every job that I see is either retail or secretarial. And of course I can’t find anything remote that would at least let me be in my own home if I start to have a mental health issue.
If anyone has any suggestions or advice, I could really use it right now. I feel like a failure in life and I just want to find something that will keep me afloat.