I'm too afraid to kill myself but the alternative of working for the rest of my life seems worse. I am not good at anything and I have cheated my way through most of my classes. I already have had a taste of office work with a two year internship in the IT field doing customer support. I do not think I can do it again. Everyday I wake up feeling guilty because my parents pay for my college education to go to classes I hate and just want to end all the misery. I know im too much of a coward to do it but each day i get closer to the edge and at some point the pain of my life is going to be worse then whatever method I choose. But if I do not do it I can look fowrad to working for the rest of my life on some minum wage at best which is not even enough to survive in modern times. I do not want to be lazy or a burden on society. I just wish someone would give me a job I can be happy with and a reasonable wage.