I work as an Office Administrator for a small business in my hometown. It’s been an absolute fucking nightmare since Day 1; I don’t make enough to pay my bills even living in low income housing while working 80 hour weeks. On top of that my boss is a complete tyrant, the anxiety I feel at work and the stress I take home with me is taking a HUGE mental and physical toll. I’ve asked for a raise multiple times and was met with a “maybe”. Only now benefits are being discussed.
After the first month of my employment, the owners decided to go out of town for 3 weeks, which turned into complete shitstorm. I was left high and dry to run the business as well as watch their two dogs for the entire duration, even though I only agreed to check on the dogs on days they couldn’t find anyone else. I didn’t get a single thank you, even after cleaning up the plan and having to take the dog to the vet.
I’m afraid to quit partially out of guilt knowing they’re a small business but the hostile and unprofessional work environment is so bizarre to deal with. I work out of the basement of the home and the owner comes downstairs to berate me almost daily when I make a mistake that I wasn’t taught how to execute properly in the first place. I also can’t afford to quit as I won’t qualify for EI and then I absolutely can’t pay my bills. I also have Fibromyalgia and it’s incredibly hard for me to find a job that’s well-adapting. Am I completely trapped? Why in the world is it so hard for me to just leave?
TL;DR – I’m too easy to walk all over. Help