I'm not afraid of actually doing work. It's the management I dread. The constant social relations and “staying on their good side” when 90% of the time I know more than they do. It's the constant fear that they will stop liking me and take away my meager livelihood as well. I usually start out pretty well, but the longer I stay the more they start to hate me. This has happened more than 20 times in 25 years. I always do great work, only to get underpaid, disrespected, and eventually fired. I've examined this many times and tried to adjust my personality to suit, but it always ends up like this. All I want to do is work and be left alone to (almost) pay all of my bills. But this society won't even let me do that. I've developed an unhealthy anxiety about this like so many others, and it feels like the elites are doubling down after the pandemic and “great resignation”, and I want to stay the course and wait until things start to shift but I'm afraid that we will all crack under pressure and cone crawling back to even worse conditions. I can feel society about to blow, and when it does, let's never forget how the upper class treated us. Ever.