I don’t know how much longer ill be able to withstand going to work everyday. I work at such a meaningless job also, there is free college which is why i have not self destructed yet (quit my job moved in to my car cut off all my hair start doing crack or something). But I’m so close. Everyday is harder.
And even with free college, its just more and more work for eternity. I really am an unhappy person generally, but its so hard for me to learn and grow from this state of being while also being forced to be a “productive member of society”. When do i get to develop myself. And create and become.
I don’t want to be a battery for the system. I dont want to make a million coffees an hour. Everything just reminds me wtf am i doing here. Wtf is everyone doing here. Whats the end game whats the plot here