My Job has changed to something I absolutely hate. I used to be content, but things have just taken a turn. The president is a bully and insane. Cracked down on the salaried people, especially the women (meaning me) for having “flexible schedules” even though that's what the job originally advertised. I worked 6-8 hours a day depending on the day and got all of my work done. I took 1 sick day due to a migraine and he yelled at me over text, demanding I figure out a way to document it then and there, instead of asking the CEO to formulate such a policy. And this situation is only one instance. He called me a thief and a cheat for it.
The CEO is also incompetent at his job. The whole hour issue meant they are now demanding 8 full hours despite efficiency. He said because people see me as his “pet” I need to set an example. Disgusting. The COO he picked wasn't much better, due to being a sales rep he cared more about his commission than being a COO. The COO also harassed an employee about their hours, even though they were doing 8 but at a slightly later time (say 9-5 when the rest of the place is 7-3 or 8-4) 3 days after this new policy change. The employee has been there almost 4 years, like me, and they quit on the spot. But somehow the CEO is upset with the employee for quitting suddenly than the COO for destroying morale and being unreasonable?
And now apparently they are changing structure again. Making a genuine RAT the new manager/COO. The guy who worked 4 hours a day, snitches like no other, told lies about me and the employee who quit saying when didn't do work despite being the most efficient in both of our single worker departments and forces his assistant/trainee to do all his work while not giving him the credit on our internal system. This man is the sheer definition of two faced since he will say whatever to whoever, especially if it gets him a promotion or credit with the higher ups.
After 4 years I would hope for more respect. Just a smidge. They say we're all getting raises because of how much work they've forced on us lately but I am not hopeful. I am dreading each day at work. I am immensely unhappy. I have been looking for new jobs but the thought of doing the same work somewhere else is disheartening. I am so depressed and upset, I can barely be polite to these people. I barely have time with my SO or my pets to take the edge off.
I started video game streaming several months ago and it has been something I am genuinely happy doing. I like planning games, configuring settings and messing with the technical side (I've got it all working with minimal help so I am getting confident in my skill there) being on camera and interacting with an audience has been amazing. My following is small so I'm not making much if anything from it. If I could quit tomorrow and do streaming full time, I would, in a heartbeat. I am so happy when I stream. But I have to worry about rent and insurance and bills. I feel so stuck, so trapped. Like I'll be forced to work jobs I hate just to survive. That doing something I love and something that means I can eat are not one and the same.
Tldr: Management is trash and I am depressed at how work happiness isn't available for me.