My dumb ass didn't do any of this shit right. So I started looking for another job because my manager sucks dog shit, I hate being the assistant manager, but more than that… I hate decorating fucking cakes. (I'm a cake decorator in a grocery store.) I'm fucking good at it though, but I HATE IT. I hate the job, I hate the environment, I hate the management. There's a very toxic environment with bullying, yelling, name calling. She called me a whore bcuz me and my boyfriend took a male coworker out for his birthday. She harassed my boyfriend asking if me and coworker were all over each other, making out, and said I was just a whore who like the attention of said coworker. Several times I have cried privately over how she treats me, and I'm not the only one she targets. I have a list of people and complaints, all along these lines. Marla (fake name) asked me to help get manager to be nicer to her. Did my best, but to no avail. In fact, it made it worse. Manager literally said horrible things about Marla, in front of Marla, without actually saying her name. Manager left to do order. Marla is crying, “so I guess all of that was about me, huh?” She finished her shift with me, hugged me, and never came back. Managers response was, “good I fucking hated that bitch anyway.” Amanda put in her notice, told me about her plans to move hours away. They bullied her right out the door, they being “the clique.” She told me about her new “job”, she's getting a new to her car, and where she will be living, but she didn't tell them. They just assumed she was “too stupid to have any plans”, etc. It got so bad she finished her shift and left. They continued for DAYS, talking about her and I had to listen to it. I overheard them talking about her, and me as well, within ear shot. It was like we weren't even there to them. And all of this behavior also bleeds into other people's experience with our deli. Running them off. I made the mistake of mentioning to one person about my plans. This coworker then told everyone I was quitting. I hadn't even gotten the job yet, or even written my 2 weeks yet. It was hell. It still is. Manager had an operation and I did an order for her, my first real order for the department. Goes without saying it was… not perfect. She comes back from leave and is throwing boxes, huffing, pist and syaign passive aggressive shit about how bad the order is. Like a kid who didnt get what they wanted for christmas. I almost walked out but guilt held me back. So I talked to our store manager. His response to all of this, including things I have not mentioned here, was essentially “it's stressful being a manager and she has every right to act like that.” So I pointed out that's what I'm hearing him say without saying it, he backtracked and tried to talk his way out of it. He was condescending, and gas lighting me. He then said I was “a waste of talent” for going to a different company and “cleaning.” I told him the other company was paying me $16.50 for my talent without all the added stress of this. He didn't have much more to say after that. So I went home early. He did talk to her and she hasn't even made eye contact with me unless it's necessary. She's not hostile, but there's a rift.
I have 5 days left of my notice. The more I sit with these things, the more I just… God dammit I can't fucking do it. I'm drained. I hate it. Every new cake order is a log in the fire of my eternal pit of hatred and ANGER. I haven't been this angry version of myself in a long time. I'm constantly seething. I crushed a cup cake the other day out of anger! I just got so angry i smashed it into nothing! I hate it! But I can't make myself tell them to go fuck themselves?! I did way more than I should have. They're actually in a really good spot bcuz of me. Plenty of back stock supply. They just hired 2 new people. The only problem is they have 4 cake orders spread out over thurs-sat, and manager used to be my position, so she's the only one who can do it. Fuck.