Ok I definitely have some sort of depression and I don’t know if my job makes it worse or it’s all because of my job. They over work us like crazy and even though we are paid somewhat decently, I still think we deserve a lot more for the shit we put up with. I work at a top hospital in California and even the US, in a department that makes the hospital an ungodly amount of money, yet they treat us like shit and the turnover is so high.
These last few weeks I almost feel like crying when I’m there. Everyone tells me how pissed off I look, I don’t talk to anyone. This isn’t who I am, I’m fun loving and constantly try to make the people around me laugh but something about this job makes me feel dead inside.
I want something new but I’m 28 with no real skills and just a high school education. I just really want a job that I don’t hate that will give me enough so I can start having a family.
I really wish I could work a remote job but every single remote job I see is either customer support for $15 an hour or a crazy ass job that requires a bachelors and years of experience.
I’m so broken inside and I don’t know what to do. I feel like something in my life needs to change quick or I need to look into some sort of anti depressant because it’s becoming unbearable now. I get so sad thinking about how my life once was. I wish I had that fire in me again. Im just so sad.