I am a 20 year old black man living in the US. I’ve been studying civil engineering in college for 2 years now. I was first introduced to leftist politics during the BLM protests of 2020. Since then, I’ve slowly moved further left to the point where I am now, as a full-on communist.
My mental health over the past two years has been declining. Becoming more aware of the harsh realities of the world and how bleak the future looks has coincided with increased depression. My beliefs make me feel like an alien. I have no one to talk to during mental health breakdowns. I have no leftists in my immediate social circle. I am just left to my own thoughts. Realizing that I will never get to do what I am truly passionate about has made me question why I am still marching forward. I almost want to just end it all.
I am hoping some of you who have been doing this longer than I have can provide me with some advice as to how I can handle the situation better. I am sure I’m not the first person to feel this way.