I left my job in September and have been working on my own business to see if I could escape having a boss. Its slow so I sit at home a lot wondering if I should be doing something.
I don't think wherever I'm at internally is normal. I should be happy to get some rest, heal up some injuries, and spend time doing things I'd like to do. My dad died of Alzheimers earlier this year and it's been a rough time. I have every reason to take a break.
Still, internally I have tension and I can't feel OK. I think the working world messed my brain up to the point where I feel like I'm doing something bad if I'm not going a million mph. I earned a lot in my life and nothing feels good about that. Just keep working keep working keep working. That can't be right.
I'm judging myself on how much work I can get done in a day and surely there's more to me than that.
Does anyone have any suggestions? I feel like I need therapy because of work.