my job isn’t exactly terrible. i’m a paralegal and the attorneys treat me well and my co workers are decent. but the work is so unfulfilling and mind-numbing. i’m extremely burnt out and for the past few months, my mental health has really deteriorated. i can’t sit in an office all day. i’m going crazy. most days i don’t even have an hours worth of work, so i stare at my phone all day. i honestly think my brain is rotting.
i commute almost an hour (sometimes more) to and from work every single day. i’m too tired by the time i get home to do anything but sit on the couch. sometimes i don’t even feel like eating, so i won’t. i’m experiencing a lot of existential dread, too. i’m only 24 and i can’t imagine doing something like this for the next 40 years.
i’ve been looking for new jobs, but everything i’m qualified for is in front of a computer screen. i’d do something else but i’m scared to take a pay cut because i basically live pay check to pay check now despite making decent salary.
i’m literally sitting at my desk right now on the verge of tears. part of me wants to just walk out right now and never come back. please tell me i’m not alone in how i feel and what i think. 🙁