That I pulled out a chunk of my own hair while screaming into a pillow when I got home yesterday. That's not a metaphor or anything, that's quite literal.
They're trying to control the lower staff because they must have realized the prior conditions are enough to warrant a lawsuit, so they're doubling down.
It's now in the ” this must be an actual form of torture used in prison camps that administration found out about” category. Without going into more details because I don't feel safe doing that on a public forum, I will say that they are controlling our bathroom breaks and using loud siren- like noises played from a speaker( at top volume) from a megaphone system to get our attention before making announcements on the intercom to make sure we're paying attention. The intercom system is faulty to begin with so often we will have feedback noises and the siren sounds stuck on a loop for minutes at a time, multiple times throughout the day.
I want to call out tomorrow because my body is reacting to extreme stress and my own PTSD has been triggered like it's never been triggered before ever since they started using the goddamn siren noises. I tried asking/ pleading with the administration team to stop using that sound and even revealed how it was triggering my own PTSD , which isn't something I ever talk about and theyre still doing it..
I want to get a haircut. I haven't gotten a haircut in years and my hair takes a long time for stylists to work with due to its length and texture and most salons by me close early. It sounds really stupid, but when I finally came out of my breakdown, I kept thinking about how much I'd like to get a haircut. The one place I really like actually has an early morning slot available for me tomorrow if I want it with a stylist I like/ knows how to work with my hair. I'm worried my boss will say something if I show up on Friday with a fresh cut after taking a day off. I know they will say something. It isn't a lie as long as I don't specify what kind of sick though, right?