Bit of a rant but, I hate the idea of working for the rest of my life with this same deadass routine, call me lazy or whatever but some days i just wake up like i cant be bothered/dont feel like it more than usual and make some bs excuse as to why I wont be in, text the manager and turn over and go back to sleep, like id honestly rather take the day unpaid than go in. I also absolutely HATE phoning/answering to any workplace aswell as I just cant be f'd with the awkward phone call (yes this happening as i write this), sat at home feeling guilty and as if everyone is judging you cause you didnt wanna work that day.
Id like to call them mental health days as when I go back in to work the annoying depressed gut feeling about working these shitty routines doing something I dont want to or care about cause I need money, the feelings are surpressed for a while, could be a couple weeks could be a month or so. Its usually worse in the winter when its dark as I wake up and dark when I go home.
This shit really grinds on me
Edit: feel like a 4 day work week might be better.
Also coincidentally my car has been in the garage since monday last week(wasnt even being worked on though ffs) so my standard 20min commute has turned into a 1hour+ commute which really doesnt motivate me right now. Guess i need money for the repairs though🤷️