Really in need of some advice. I 25F have been at my job for a year and a half now. I've gone through a long battle with depression and existential dread over the last three years, because the idea of working for the rest of my life makes me want to die. There's nothing I want to spend 40+ hours a week doing. I hate my job specifically because of how stupid the work is – it's a high intensity environment where everyone is constantly stressed and paranoid, which rubs off and makes me constantly stressed and paranoid. I'm trying my best to separate myself from it and remember that none of it matters but I'm struggling. I'm working on this in therapy.
I got a mediocre performance review, and I can feel management's eyes sharply on me. It's brought down my confidence a lot. I want to quit because I'm unhappy and feel like I'm always being watched, and I don't ever feel good enough. Here's the thing though – I make good money, good benefits / perks, I don't have anyone who's necessarily “mean” to me at work, and it's a hybrid in office / WFH schedule. So while I hate the work, I'm a lot better off than most. I also would likely be unhappy at any job – there's nothing I want to do so I have no idea what to even look for.
Is this the least miserable I'd be, and therefore shouldn't quit? I just don't want to make a stupid decision here. Go easy on me I just need some words of wisdom haha.