I work at a small pet food store in Canada. I accepted the job offer from my mother after they were suffering from sudden understaffing (worker got sick, another switched to part time for school and later quit) and so they needed a temp worker while things worked themselves out. I felt responsible since with only 2 workers available, my mother had no days off, and people wouldn't shut up about how my non-existent job hunt was going anyway, so I went.
After the other person quit I basically went from temp to full time employee in a field I very much don't understand or care about and every day off had just been dreading every hour that brings me closer to going back.
But as much as I want to quit, an intrusive thought keeps entering my head. “If you quit then you're a weak freeloader who'll end up on the street” bounces around in my head until I just stop thinking and get back to working. So I'm in a state where I'll be unhappy whether I quit my job or not. Other intrusive thoughts include: “Stop whining, being an adult all about being unhappy” “You're a temp, just wait until they fire you.” and “You're abandoning everyone. It's your responsibility”
I know this isn't nearly as bad as what others are going through and I'm doing 99% of this to myself (hell this is probably the wrong sub) but if there's any advice I'm open to it