Hi, thought I would share my horrific experience that's still on but soon to end. If you've experienced something similar to this you're not alone, there are better employers out there We just got to find them.
I've had a ton of concerns with this company from obvious favoritism to legal concerns. I have tried to resolve these and been very patient but tonight was the end of it, I was not dealing with my boss, HR or legal anymore, I was going straight to the CEO to see if I can get some answers.
This company has been pretty toxic during my entire employment. I have shown over and over again that peer to peer coaching will heavily affect morale on top of bring ethics and legal concerns if it goes wrong.
I had made a few HR reports about hostility in the company. A very notable case that I can't get into the details here about went horrible, someone in the company told the person I was reporting my name along with the details of my report. That person has sense threatened and harassed me and I have reported it to no avail, same with the original report that would land anybody fired and in jail if it was done proper.
The other day a friend of the person I reported harass me with a peer-to-peer coaching, so much so that they even stated they were doing it out of spite. I showed irrefutable evidence of this to HR, legal and the CEO. I was pretty torn up about this because I actually didn't expect this from them.
Couple hours after my report and radio silence from everybody I sent it to. My mind started wandering and I started panicking because now I have two confirmed enemies in the company and one was a backstab. I'm still at work all this is happening, I'm trying to keep myself calm but I'm sitting at my desk sobbing because I was really hoping to have a career here and now everybody's going against me.
I decide I cannot work like this and I needed a day to at least think about it, so I called out the moment I got off work for the next day. We are very short staffed and nobody like this because I'm very reliable I'd like to think. I've already been talking with the CEO a little bit about my horrible experiences, they texted me after I called off…
My mind wandering and just staring at it, It was really hard to not look at it as them being hostile towards me but in hindsight they were. The text simply stated “Can I take this as your two week notice?” I've ignored plenty of red flags in the past and believed in the company motto, but I couldn't help to think that they were not going to call this person out for literally telling me it was out of spite.
I tell them it's not and that'll be back to work my next scheduled day, very upset but I'll be there. Still no response for my now fourth report about hostility in the workplace. My mind still racing and wondering who I can trust in this company do not do something out of spite. I got to my desk and after a couple of minutes I started sobbing again, I've never been so unhappy while I'm at work, always been proud of the work that I do and to see the accomplishments, but now I'm scared.
I saw the CEO messaging in a couple of chats, I noticed something that had my racing mine think that they was pointing people out but in a very subtle way. Thinking with the company motto in mind and the try one last time to see if there's a glimmer of hope in this company. I asked why there is different wording to certain people, they did not understand and said they were just trying to be cautious two people's beliefs. This was odd to me because I told everybody Merry Christmas during Christmas and I didn't see how removing “Happy New Year” in their message to certain people was necessary.
I pointed it out, told them that it looks like treating everybody equally, said not to take it as an insult but rather another perspective. When I sent that message I completely missed their message in the main chat that essentially said “people that hate the company can walk out the door”. I guess they saw me as somebody that hated the company because I hold accountability so high and saw my reports as me picking on other people Even though I gave much benefit of doubt in my reports and ways to correct without punishment.
The conversation boiled down to them eventually telling me to leave the company if I felt it necessary to watch my back all the time. Me sobbing at this trying so hard not to just get up and walk right then and there, I decided to take their advice.
I sent everybody that knew about my reports my two week notice, hoping that would suffice for them not to bully me anymore because I was doing the right thing but to the wrong people.
To a new year and new experiences. o7