I'm feeling so discouraged right now. I work in a sales job that is in a retail environment. Like many sales jobs, my higher ups only care about numbers. There's alot of favoritism I'm noticing in the team, and when I ask for encouragement I never get it. Yet our team boasts about how much we are there for each other. I never get help from my team members and yet other people get so much support.
We will get written up and fired if we do not get our sales numbers.. and my job is constantly dangled in front of my face like it's a prize or something. MAYBE you won't get fired if you meet your goals right? MAYBE my way of life won't be completely threatened if I can get Bob to purchase. Also I can't miss any days or I will get written up as well.
The worst part is I'm so stressed. I get paid okay-ish, but everything is so expensive that I'm constantly broke. I feel so ashamed begging my family for $5 and $10 here so I can eat. My family is super poor but they're my only support. I'm so behind on bills, and my card got overdrafted and charged a fee so I don't even use that bank account anymore because I can't pay it.
I'm so stressed out. I have no gas, no money, and I don't even know how I'll get to work tomorrow. I don't even want to go but if I miss the day I'll be one step closer to losing my job, which I do need. I got a payday loan last week because I was so desperate and it paid my insurance bill, but now I have no options.
I'm so down and discouraged. I don't know what to do anymore guys
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