Like my baseline is pretty hopeless and depressed, I have a hard time being a “productive” Member of society. I honestly don't see any future where I have like a halfway decent life on my own. The only reason I haven't done anything crazy or stupid so far is because I have a safe comfortable place to live with my parents, Honestly if I didn't have that to fall back on I would have killed myself years ago, And I really don't know how much longer I can carry on knowing that an independent future is not really probably going to happen for me. And that sucks cause I would like to be a person but it just doesn't seem possible in this society. I'm not lazy But I'm just not worthwhile in the way society decided I shouldn't be I'm not just sucks couldn't feel like no matter how hard it worked or what I work at I'm just gonna always be around here kinda sad. I wish I could run away somewhere but I don't think anywhere else in the world is any better capitalism is consuming everything.