My stomach has been in knots. I haven't felt anxiety like this in a long time. My body clams up and I shake. What would happen legally to me if I just don't go in on Monday?? I'm a criminal Paralegal. It's morally conflicting too.
I only started on the 1st of this month. Its just me in the department. I'm utterly lost when my colleague isn't in (he's only in for 2 days) I spoke to my boss and don't feel any better.
He's making it worse because he's essentially forcing me to sit in another room with other colleagues when my colleague isn't there. He means we'll so I'm not isolated in a room but I want to be by myself! I've tried telling him. Co workers give me more social anxiety.
I already have a diagnosed anxiety disorder which I take medication for. It barely helps with this. I spent last night drinking as it was the only way I could cope.
I'm still on probation. I don't care about money. I'm not living paycheck to paycheck or have many bills. I have siblings to support me in case.
I'm worried about leaving because of the notice I'd have to give in. There's no one else to do the work if I just don't show up from Monday. But I physically cannot bear to get up from bed and go work. Its saturday and I'm already feeling sick.
There has to be a way?