So I work maintenance in a factory and I'm the only person there who does this. I fix everything along with filling in other positions when needed. I'm the guy who solves all the problems. I'm the only guy who solves all the problems.
Right now I'm going through it, mentally. I'm having a breakdown (non-work related) and I just want to take some time off. If I could, I'd take a week of personal time this week and just clear my head and take some much needed time to myself. I'm miserable at work and every second of every day I'm counting down the minutes until I get to go home.
I am so sad all the time. Nothing happened in my life but I just need, fucking NEED a minute to breathe, to just be able to wake up and not dread everything in front of me for a small period of time. I need to reset my battery.
But I can't.
If I take a week off, who fixes the machines? Who fills in all the blanks at this understaffed place? If I take a fucking day off I'm getting text-messages mid-day from coworkers and my supervisor asking if I'll be in the next day because ____ went wrong and something needs fixing.
I'm so sick of it. I need this job but I need my mental health too.
Fuck. Sorry. I just needed to get this out.