Im a cook working closing shift the last 12 years. Been at about 8 jobs in this time. After about a year and half to two years I get depressed. Its all so mundane. I always have my sober times and times where i drink my two tall cans per night to cope. Its so hard sometimes. Just live to work and pay rent. fuck im going nuts man. I know we are all going through it.
I want to escape this shit. My only savior seems to be vanlife. Build out a van for minimalist living and work part time and save money for a while and just chill and focus on myself.
I just needed to vent and i know you people understand me.