Rant/Vent
Hey yall I’m so in love with this sub bc I feel like I found my people. I just want to see if anybody here in this sub feels the same way as I do and how you cope with it.
I (unfortunately) live in California…one of, if not…THEE most expensive state to live in. My first job started cutting hours so i went from working 30+ hours a week to 9…yes NINE hours a WEEK and will constantly deny my shift pick up request. I had no choice but to pick up another job…but they also cut my hours so I had to get a THIRD job :,) 3 jobs just to barely work 40 hours a week.
I applied to hundreds of full time positions (and still applying) to no avail..they always ghost me even after calling and emailing them multiple times. I had to drop out of school last year couldn’t afford to pay out of pocket and FAFSA stopped coming thru bc i was on academic probation…my mental health was assy after covid which caused my grades to slip…and i still have friends and family members asking me when i’m going to go back to school because they think a degree will magically land me a high paying dream job. And to top it all off my physical health is at an all time low. My back tooth is in pain and I’m in need of a root canal. Dawg, I can’t even afford to get proper dental care. Cuz even after insurance, one appointment is worth my whole check so I have to just thug it out and see what happens.
Idk what to do, I’m lost. I’m almost 23 and i feel like a failure. I’m so discouraged its like whats the point of living? What’s the point of working and doing physical damage to my body for 3 checks that when put together, won’t even cover all the basic necessities? I don’t want to live to work but that’s exactly what I’m doing.
Does anyone else like this? What have you done to overcome this dark feeling? What do yall recommend i just do? Shii at this moment I just need a little words of encouragement or advice or something from ALL people. Religious, spiritual, non religious, funny mf’s, serious mf’s, etc Man i don’t even care I’ll take anything.
I don’t know what to do…is this what my life amounts too?