Hi guys,
As the title says, I’m completely lost in life at the moment. I’m very depressed and hate my job. I have a feeling of dread and unwillingness to get up at go in the morning, there are factors outside of work which are bringing my mental health down by a significant amount too.
I just want to say in general I like the people I work with, it’s just a very high stress environment. The co-owner however, has been treating me very badly, he micromanages me and doesn’t trust me. He often tells me to ask my manager if he thinks I am not correct about something, but when I do ask my manager he confirms i am indeed correct.
I work in construction and I’ve been told that the shouting and the general way that the co-owner treats me isn’t as bad as how he has been in the past. Which in itself is a problem.
I want to leave, but I’m contracted in as they have paid my university fees, this could leave me thousands in debt. I also have this fear of what if things get better and I’ll never know? What if leaving will be a huge mistake and my new job is worse?
I would really like a change in career, I’ve been looking at trainee probation officer work and the pay is similar to what I am on now (£30,000).
Can anyone offer me advice please? My Dad thinks I should find a new job first and then surprise them, but as mentioned above i am contracted in and this could cause a lot of issues for my future plans.