I have been unemployed for a while and have received a job offer, I have to take it and I'm just not very excited about it. I anticipate that it will be challenging and the pay isn't a poverty wage but it's not that great either. It's “enough”. I don't want to commit to staying at this job for a year.
Yes, I'm aware that I should be grateful to have work after a period of unemployment. I'm just not excited because I was interviewing for other positions that were much more interesting and in line with my career goals, and while this one isn't necessarily a bad job, I just feel depressed about needing to take what was essentially my “safe” option in case I didn't get an offer elsewhere.
I'm mainly just apathetic because it doesn't seem like I'll have work life balance and I live in an expensive area in the US. I don't think I can fully convey why I'm apathetic, I'm just in a bad place right now mentally and this job just seems like it'll be more of a drain on my already low energy than a source of inspiration.
Again, I'm aware that a job isn't necessarily meant to be a source of positivity and inspiration, but for myself, personally, I'd like to spend my waking hours feeling at least somewhat excited about what I'm doing. This is just the type of person that I am and I tend to get very depressed when my work feels tedious and draining.
What do you all do to remain hopeful? I go to therapy, practice meditation, and attempt to practice gratitude but I honestly just feel like shit. Anything you could offer would be much appreciated.