Ive always been a very optimistic person. All of my jobs have been in the care field (elderly and kids) and have always been underpaid. But i always kept a good attitude and worked hard. My optimism was one of my best qualities.
So I did what you were supposed to, I got a degree and kept working all throughout school. I finally graduated and cannot find a new job that pays more than i make right now. $15.60 an hour to work at a school, is what I do now.
Today I reached my breaking point. I am all out of money. I had an unexpected vet bill that put me over. I feel like I am not the same person I have been. I am so defeated and Im struggling with it so hard. I feel like my optimism and can do attitude always kept me going and now that its gone Im not sure what to do. I just cant do it anymore.
My optimism has been stolen from me. Im waking up to how depressing this all is.
That is all.
Edit: I guess I just came here to say that all my hard work and optimism did not pay off. It will never pay off and I am so bitter. I feel like Ive been lied to