I'll try to be as concise and factual as possible.
- Young, female employee bullied by manager of otherwise all older male team in a large and famous company
- Extremely difficult to retain staff and find replacement as it requires a master's degree/tons of specialized tech/comp sci experience
- Am severely underpaid but don't mind, was doing it because I like this job and am motivated
- Worked my ass off for years and it has been proven and in writing by several managers (idk why anymore tbh probably was a mistake) even in my current performance review.
- Other people witnessed I was being abused and reported it. I did not report the abuse myself. Then HR contacted me and I answered their questions honestly, with text messages and emails as evidence. Did not say anything I did not have evidence or witnesses to back up.
- I asked to be quietly transferred to another department and said in writing I don't want to cause any trouble.
- Months later they let former manager do my performance evaluation for last year
- I achieved a lot and it is proven and can't be denied. So I get a nice bonus.
- At the same time, they put me on a path/process which is the last step before getting fired – the justification being that a part of the performance review is a review of my personality and behaviours judged my manager, not a mental health professional. In other words, they let my bully evaluate me psychologically and decide if my personality fits the company culture.
- Am pregnant so can't look for a new job because nobody will hire me like this
- There are rumors the former manager/bully is getting a promotion and a transfer to the US office (we are in Europe but he's from South Asia)
- My life is ruined. Went from high achieving career woman to unemployed mom on welfare (if I even qualify)
What do you think? Also not sure where I should ask this, but this subreddit came up when I tried to google it. I know it is my fault and am taking responsibility and promised I'll try to change.
But I can't help but be sad and heartbroken. I didn't even act like a “problem employee”. I took abuse without saying anything and worked a lot which they can't deny hence the bonus. But they will still blame me for what happened and want to get rid of me.