I'm so fucking tired with my fucking job and fucking abusive/unfair coworkers as well as fucking stupid idiotic leaders who does not give a shit about every single concerns that were raised, and last but not the least toxic and ill-mannered customers. For 6 years working experience in Call Center BPO industry I have never been so unhappy. I'm currently working in a different call center company for almost 3 years and I am living hell in this company with parasite people. I cried today because I cannot quit due to several reasons and those reasons aren't just lame reasons. It's about family financial, self-care needs financial, pet financial, future savings, VISA purposes, etc. But I do not deserve this kind of treatment. I am just totally not happy. I feel like a prisoner. My brain could not focus or concentrate anymore so I cannot continue studying and upskill to a new career (SEO, I paid for this lesson). Nothing has ever make me feel motivated anymore. I am engaged but my fiancé is far away we are in long distance. So everything is really, really hard for me. I can say that this is totally a big challenge and I feel quitting. I am just so tired. This is not what I signed up for. The job is making me crazy. It affects my mental state. I am no longer happy but I CANNOT QUIT SINCE I HAVE AN UPCOMING TOURIST VISA AND BEING EMPLOYED IS ONE OF A STRONG TIES I WILL GO BACK TO MY COUNTRY. I know there is still no guarantee but I am trying to not lose hope. That is why… I cannot quit this toxic job. I am heartbroken and losing hope I don't know I am so done. I want to take a break tomorrow I guess BUT I DON'T KNOW BECAUSE I NEED TO SAVE MY PAID TIME OFFs too! I sometimes… Just want to disappear but I can't.