I am at home over my lunch break. I generally think going home over my lunch break is a waste of time because of the time it takes to get home and back to work, but I was so desperate to get out of there. I took a new job not too long ago and am doing so, so poorly. I’m so stressed and over worked. I feel like I’ve been set up for failure- there are so many things done poorly that I’m taking the blame for. I don’t know how to get out of this hole.
Getting a new job doesn’t feel like a real option because I think I need to stay here 2-3 years so that I don’t burn bridges in my small community. I just hate it so much. My day-to-day tasks are awful and not what I want to be doing, and I feel misled from how the job was advertised. And the worst part is that I’m in a “leadership” role so I have a team to lead and I don’t want them to know how much I hate it. I’m incredibly depressed, and our health insurance is so bad that if I ever get any actual life threatening health problems I think there’s a good chance that I’ll just die because nobody is “in network.”