Title says it all, today I went to work and I got pulled by my manager into the meeting room. Was really confused but I didn't think I'd actually get fired. I was so flustered after all I could say is thank you for the opportunity before I left and said goodbye to everyone.
To be honest, I think they fired me because I called her out (in the friendliest way) about accusing me of skipping time when I wasn't. They kinda knew of my home situation where I basically got assaulted multiple times so it felt weird to get fired with this situation.
I've grown up in an abusive household, prices are so high I only could've afforded roommates. I felt so broken when I got back I just cired the most tears I've had in ages, it's not right. My eyes feel like they're burning. I'm so tired, I just want to die. I don't even know how I got this far.
Honestly they didn't even properly train me, it was a trainee role and I pretty much started getting burnt asking questions even though I needed to know them. I got anxiety asking my coworker for questions. I wasn't even in for 2 months and I felt like I was slowly but surely getting better. I didn't even get proper feedback on what I did right or wrong which is what makes me getting fired all the more weirder/suspicious to me.
I feel so broken, I feel so fucking angry, I feel so depressed, I wish I called it out when I got fired. I'll never let myself be a doormat again. But at the same time, is it worth it anymore? Nothing ever happens against actions like this and it looks like it's getting worse, so what's the point? What's the fucking breaking point before all of this ends? I felt like I wanted to rip the world in half this afternoon when I went for my jog.
But the truth is, I guess I didn't really like working there anyways. But at the same time, what the fuck do I do anymore?