Hi all I am asking this here to see if anybody can have material advice for me.
I am so tired of this life. I am 25M and honestly my life is probably much better than ~95% of the people in the world. But I feel like a damn slave. I have no debt, I make a large amount of money compared to people my age, I am doing a relatively “wow” job, and I feel absolutely miserable.
I can't get myself to think that it is possible that I will not work for someone one day, I can't get myself to try to put the effort in to make life bearable. On top of all this, there is always stress in my family, I have a borderline mother who absolutely does whatever the opposite of support is and I face deportation everyday and am anxious about it as I am an international living in NYC. If I move back to my home country Turkey, I will be dealing with extreme inflation, a crazy mom and excessive social tensions only people from dictatorships can understand.
Life sucks, how do I get out of it? I don't see su*cide as an option, it will make too many people sad. I apologize if this sounds like a princess crying to some of you, I am having a tough day, my mother was really heavy again.