I’m freaking tf out. I think I need to leave my job. For context I left an awful law firm to join a work from home firm with an attorney who was always super nice to me at the other place. My family lost their home and he actually helped us out for free. I always thought it would be great working for him but as it turns out, he’s a narcissistic bully just like the boss from the place I left. He promised me a better position and better treatment and now I feel like I’m going fucking crazy. I’m supposed to be GRATEFUL for this???
The other day I had a convo with my bosses (there is a female boss too that I get along better with but the male boss is a tyrant and basically calls the shots) about how they need to communicate better with me because the guy keeps getting pissy with ME when he doesn’t fully explain what he wants. We also had an issue where they kept trying to give me orders and work through my coworker, essentially treating her as my manager when she is NOT my manager. I expressed discomfort about this as well and they agreed to give me work or talk to me about issues directly. I thought everything was fine.
I sent a report of our finances this morning because my boss didn’t believe me about our bank balance and now he is bugging the fuck out thinking I somehow did something wrong. It was a literal copy of our bank statement that I labeled the transactions on. I can’t change the bank. I did forget to finish depositing a check on Monday because our bank was having issues and I’ve been so busy that I can barely breathe, I apologized and did it right away. We still have over 100 grand in the account which is plenty, we’re not over drafting, I can’t understand what is so horrible. I do the payroll and finances so I know we’re fine.
I tried to call him about it and he wouldn’t pick up. Right now he’s on the phone throwing a fucking fit with my other boss and the coworker who is not my manager. No one is answering my calls or texts.
This place is toxic as fuck and I’m going to start applying to other jobs today. I feel like everyone is shutting me out while simultaneously telling me that the lack of communication was their problem. They’re gaslighting me. And I am going to leave because fuck that. I deserve respect. I’ll be a frigging weed picker and I’ll probably make more money too.
I am sick and tired of this abuse. I’ve left friendships, not even relationships for LESS. I’m constantly panicking that I will make him mad, or that he won’t like something I did and my pay sucks. I could go get something that’s much less stressful and probably make more money at this point. It’s work from home but it doesn’t even matter because I’m losing my hair from stress and I’m a 30 year old woman. Fuck this. I would be happier in an office with people who don’t gaslight me if that’s what it comes down to.