Just wanted to let off my dissapointment really. I've been working at a place for over 2yrs under a temporary contract (which has affected my ability to get a mortgage but thats another story) and through these 2 years ive been dangled numerous carrots of permanent contracts that haven't materialised. I ended up applying for another position at the place i work and i was told by colleagues in higher positions that they thought i'd get the position, but i obviously just tried to ignore all of that and focus on my interview. It went well and i had a phone call a few hours after my interview that i missed due to being at work. From experience, i know they call the successful applicant and email the rest. I rang back but to no response, so waited until today (monday) for another call back.
Today, i finally got the phone call and i didn't get it. They decided to ring me because they thought i did a great job but needed more of X experience but wanted to tell me over the phone.
As nice as that is, I'm just utterly exhausted from stress and feel a little led on even though i have no one to blame but myself for allowing that to happen. Even though i hate to admit it, i let my colleagues comments affect my usual level head and i started to think i'd be starting 2023 with a fresh job and a fresh start. Now i know it'll be more of the same struggle, ontop of everything else going on… i'm so tired đ