Hey all,
Postgrad from college, I got pretty lucky with my first 2 companies being that they were some large players in the industry I am in within technology and business i.e. typical consulting roles. I have 4.5 years total experience now, so just enough that most low-mid / mid level positions require a lot more from me now.
Due to personal reasons, my performance was suffering and I got terminated from my last company after being warned about not being able to step it up to their expectations.
Its now been 2 months unemployed and I feel like a unicorn cause in theory, I have a great background although I am very anxious about my experience since I felt like I skirted by and didn't get the foundational knowledge I could have got if I worked harder. I feel anxious everyday and this stops me from doing stuff or applying more.
Part of me deep down does not want to work and wants to figure stuff out but I'm also wasting time due to a combination of personal issues, mental health, etc.
My fear is that the more months that go by, I will be a very unattractive candidate for more top tier companies and I wonder if I slipped off the “typical career” path even though in paper, I guess I have good.
I honestly don't know what exactly I want to do within my current industry and background and sort of feel like lost all over since frankly throughout college and these jobs, I was just making do and not putting in more effort.
Right now, I got lucky since since all the layoffs mean recruiters expect I got laid off and not fired even though my company has no public news about that so I still wonder if its sketchy to say I got laid off. Also, after a certain point, I wonder if they will think if I've spent this much time without any offers, I might be a suspicious candidate to hire. Idk guys … I just feel overall lost being this is the first time since ever in my life, I truly have my own free time to myself not owned by any school or company.
I travelled and continue to travel when I can. I'm blessed to stay at home with parents, have lot of savings, etc. although I want to get a new job and move out asap and start my life up again.