I started this job as an internship right out of college, about 6 months ago. I'm still technically an intern but my boss has been telling me for MONTHS that they want to hire me as a full time employee. We had this conversation Mid-October, and I just heard after coming back from break they finally are writing me a job offer.
I am trying to explain this while keeping confidentiality, but this workplace over the years has gone from having a lot of people to a complete skeleton crew; even when I started my boss was juggling a variety of roles. Although hired as an intern for this job there was no person in this position I really had to learn from, just my boss who didn't go to school for what job I do.
I am personally not someone who minds taking on some tasks outside of what I am actually there to do, but over the last few months it's gotten worse as my boss continuously drops things on me and assigns me things that are WAY out of my wheelhouse and I don't really feel comfortable, nor want to handle. Not to mention Ive recently been doing less and less what I actually am meant to do in his job, the skills and things I learned in college about my profession feeling useless to me. Also I get paid terribly right now for someone essentially doing mid-level work.
I want to properly quit this job, but I've only ever handed my two weeks in once before, that was only this last year and I had a good relationship with my boss at my old job. All jobs i've had I would just silently quit and not go back. My current boss I feel anxious to talk to and don't know what to say. I know there is a job offer coming this week for me but I don't want it anymore and I feel bad about declining it. I have really bad anxiety but I like my boss at a personal level and don't want to screw them completely. This has been bothering me all day and my anxiety is so bad I haven't been able to eat or sleep much all week.
If you read all of this I could really use any words of encouragement or advice on what to do. Thanks!