Hi there,
I'm 33, I have a BA, and master's degree from one of the top 8 business schools in my country (Germany)…and since I was 27, when I finished my education, I wasn't able to keep a job for more than 6 months.
I've fought like a wild animal to get something started, I've tried so many times, I've endured, I've tried to fight against myself …but it never works. Working with other people, in an office, in objectives-oriented jobs, is too much for me: I've dealt with panick attacks during the last 6 years, long periods of unemployment that I was able to cover up smartly, suicidal thoughts whenever I'm working, and so on and so on…
My life is otherwise ok, I love socializing outside of work, which is weird, I know.
It's not even working that poses a problem, I'm perfectly fine with it, it's the people, the interactions, the noise, the lights, the office, the part where you're forced to go eat and socialize with them, and so on.
I took the afternoon and tomorrow off yesterday, because I'm barely able to walk after a close-call (almost went through a panick attack, flash lights, the whole schebang). I'm a complete mess right now, the emotional pain is incredible, and I can only think about one thing: not working under, or with people, anymore: it's too much horror, everything about it, all the details and implications that go along with it.
I wish I could plug my brain to a “normal” person's, just once, especially my colleagues/bosses, so they could understand, but it's just not that easy.