So, I can’t sleep before 2 AM. My natural sleep time is around 3 and meds can help make that sleep time a bit earlier.
I cannot for the life of me hold down a job. I will have stints for about 6 months but the sleep deprivation catches up and I absolutely crash and burn. I’ve been diagnosed with Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder which is just fancy for “you’re a night owl”.
What I don’t get is America’s continued obsession with the early morning. I have never had a positive thought before noon. I can’t hold down a typical 9 to 5 because I am exhausted to tears. Night jobs are so so horrifically depressing. I hate this. I hate this idea that waking up at the crack of dawn is a “moral virtue”
If I could change anything about myself, it would be my natural circadian rhythm. I want to know what it’s like to literally function during the daytime. I became a night owl at 15. 15 years later I’m exactly the same. We are so sleep deprived in this society that I would rather be homeless than wake up early day in and day out. It’s sick and it is, quite literally torture. Thanks for listening.