I’m so tired. I’m from a small office. We are losing 3 more people in May and we are already short 10. One is on mental health leave for an undetermined amount of time. They slowed on replacing people—minimizing the number of positions we rehire for. We are supposed to have 35.
I’m struggling. Im behind on my assignments. Our online infrastructure is horrible and slows down or crashes regularly. Im depressed. I worked an entire week while physically ill because I had a deadline to make. It pays well it has great benefits and I even get a lot of time off (when there is coverage and conveniently no one can really cover me). I really like my manager and feel like Im completely letting him down, but I have been doing as best as I can without burning out further.
Am I a big baby? Maybe. It’s just so hard to watch the world crumble from the depressing office space in my tiny too-expensive apartment. The landlord is increasing our rent and I’m just so tired.