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Debating quitting and I feel guilty about it (kinda a rant, kinda asking opinions)

Title sums it up. This is a job I started as a temp last August, hired full time last November. Basically a receptionist position. And there have been several times since then that I've found myself thinking “If I'd have known X I wouldn't have agreed to switch to full time…” First thing was that I was lied to at the beginning. The temp agency told me that the workplace had a vaccine mandate for workers. (Which granted, the place may have lied to the temp agency too). I didn't find out until after I was full time that there's at least 3 people who refuse to get the covid vaccine. I wear a mask all the time at work, so that I can sort of overlook, though I'm not happy about it. I know for sure the place has no vaccine mandate because I was only asked if I'd…


Title sums it up.
This is a job I started as a temp last August, hired full time last November. Basically a receptionist position. And there have been several times since then that I've found myself thinking “If I'd have known X I wouldn't have agreed to switch to full time…”

First thing was that I was lied to at the beginning. The temp agency told me that the workplace had a vaccine mandate for workers. (Which granted, the place may have lied to the temp agency too). I didn't find out until after I was full time that there's at least 3 people who refuse to get the covid vaccine. I wear a mask all the time at work, so that I can sort of overlook, though I'm not happy about it. I know for sure the place has no vaccine mandate because I was only asked if I'd gotten it when my state was debating making it mandatory.
The second thing is the mask. I wear one all the time even though the workplace has never required it, except for a very brief time at one point when numbers were higher last year. And when masks were required, they didn't bother to say anything to all the people not wearing them. Didn't even enforce it in any way, only put signs on the door as state mandated at the time, but otherwise pretty much ignored it. The instant the state mandate dropped, the signs came down and they stopped all pretense of caring; now other than once or twice when a coworker actually catches covid, I'm the only one wearing a mask. Which fine, whatever, I don't work super close with anyone. But I kinda hate that I get comments on it all the time. (Mostly from customers, not coworkers). The pandemic isn't over, and yes, masks work so I am protecting myself.

Third is customers. I really hate working retail, and tried my best to get out of it. This is sorta retail adjacent, so I thought it would be better. Not so much. I still get yelled at by customers all the time, even though literally my job is to direct their calls and I have absolutely 0 control over whether or not the other departments pick up their calls. Which leads to 3A, which is phone calls. I was told when initially taking the job (and it was true last year) that the call volume was small. Hah. These days I'm fielding 90+ phone calls a day. Maybe that's not a lot to some people, but to me it's a lot.

Fourth is politics. At work there should be no discussion of politics just as a general thing–and there usually isn't–but everyone but three of us working here are very staunch republican, anti-science. This has created issues where I have to bite my tongue and then hate myself for not speaking up. And this political thing is connected to half the reason I want to quit:
Fifth, the tv. There's a waiting room, and the tv is on ALL THE TIME. All 8 hours of my shift. And I'm lucky enough that my desk is on the same wall as the tv. So while I can't see it (thankfully), I can hear every single word on it. And when I asked the GM who was turning up the volume from across the room “Can we please not have the tv that loud?” the response was “The customers need to hear it” and no decrease in volume. And what's on the tv that the customers have to hear? News. It's almost always news other than the very few times it's been sports. Sports are whatever, but fox news for 8 hours a day at a loud volume is driving me nuts. I go home after work and can't have any noise on for several hours, even if I had wanted to watch something, I can't.

Sixth is the odd way that somehow the front facing diversity reps have all been let go since I've started here, and now almost everyone that works here is white or white passing, other than a few guys in back.

So those are all little things, but they're adding up to me not wanting to work here anymore. And then I feel guilty about wanting to quit, because most of the people I work with directly or indirectly are very nice. At least to me. And the office manager has been good about letting me take off time/days for doctors appointments, of which there have been quite a few since my health insurance had finally settled. And I got a free sweater and winter coat (with the company name embroidered).

Overall, after typing it out, none of it seems like good enough reasons to leave or not. But I dunno. Maybe I just needed to rant. If it gets taken down for being off topic so be it; if it doesn't, what do other people think?

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