I started at a big four firm after I graduated from university and was really excited about it for a few months. Then it really started to wear on me with the long hours and terrible senior.
She would belittle me in front of my team
Text me on teams every hour to “see what I’m doing”
Micromanage my tasks and not answer questions that I had
Anyhow she was a terrible manager and with the long hours I really suffered and felt like I needed to apologise for every mistake I made. After 3 months I quit but here in Europe there was a 3 month notice period which I had to sit out and endure. Within those 3 months this senior to me also quit or was fired idk.
Now I work at a really nice company but I still feel like I need to apologise and am really nervous to mess up since my last experience.
Am I scarred for life?