6 months ago I started my first corporate job with a good salary. I was pretty much paycheck to paycheck at my previous jobs, so this is the first time I'm able to live in my own apartment and can afford the lifestyle I've been wanting so bad.
I'm grateful, I really am. I hated all my other jobs, and I thought cushy corporate would solve my problems. The work itself is okay – but the culture literally makes me want to vomit. The fakeness, passive aggressiveness, ass-kissing, and office politics is sickening. It makes me so anxious and I dread it every day.
I've hated all of my jobs, but I love my personal life and I now love it more than ever since I can afford to do fun things. I'm not passionate about anything besides my friends and family. But I like to read mystery books, cook, and do ceramics. I also love to go on walks and listen to podcasts.
For the past several years I've been tirelessly researching, trying to find the job that would finally make work a happy place as well. I thought my new job was the answer, but it's not. And now I'm feeling a bit stuck. I see this as two options.
Option 1 is I chose the wrong job – and I continue my search. The drawback of this is that I'm tired and want work thoughts to stop eating away at my personal life. I also truly don't know anymore what work would actually make me happy and also pay for the life I want. Option 2 is I find a way to stop dwelling on the nastiness of corporate culture, and learn how to be happy with it in my life.
I would love to hear advice from others who hit this crossroads, or have any personal experience that relates.