Earlier this day, I came to the office today to join the orientation with fellow strangers that worked at the same agency/company as me. We introduced ourselves after the short briefing, then I had to introduce myself, the group told me to explain what is the reasons why I work for this company and what are your expectations before working for the company. I introduced myself and the branch I will soon work, I had a sudden epiphany that I wanted to share my life, I shared my struggles of finding a job I had depression, and the only way that I could pick myself up from my depression is to slowly work on myself because there is no one that could help you but yourself. After the group leader discussed the rules and regulations at work, she said that someone in the cashier earlier this month stole 15k pesos (265 american dollars). After she was caught, she said that she was dealing with depression and she made her do those things. I am suffering from depression and anxiety for more than half of my life but I never stole or cheat from anyone, they immediately assumed that I'm a crazy person and I have a tendency of stealing which is complete bullshit because I don't need money in the first place I just want to get out from this rut that I'm currently in. Someone from the group even says that “I will slam your head on the wall”, after some time the group leader discuss the insurance of the company, She said that, the company will give you money after you have an accident, even if you commit suicide by jumping through a speeding vehicle and she turns her gaze through me and said to me that, “You can always jump to a speeding vehicle to get your 10k pesos today” (176.20 dollars). I literally want to say on her fat face that “I don't need your fucking money I can live on my fucking own”, but decided not to. Sorry, but I just wanna get this off my chest because it has been bugging me this whole afternoon. These people didn't know or have never been depressed, therefore, they can talk lightly (half-jokingly) about these things which makes me sick to my fucking stomach. People like these do exist in the world, and I cannot wait to leave this god-forsaken country.
Sorry, my English is bad but I tried to make it more comprehensible.