My job has run me down to the point that I don’t even feel like I’m good at any type of work. I feel like I’ll be bad at any job.
I’m at the point where I feel like a failure overall. Logically I know I really have been set up to fail, not purposefully but still, and that it would’ve been hard to do much better. The people who are disappointed in me did not put me in a position to succeed even remotely.
I’m in a hybrid position where both halves should be FT jobs. Even if that was the case, the 2 FT employees couldn’t meet the goals I’ve been facing. So much of what has went wrong has been fully out of my hands but it’s held against me. I’m doing everything I can and for reasons out of my control, there aren’t results to show for it.
It’s not on me.
But it feels like it is. And it feels like I’m not good at fucking anything. My confidence in even my being somewhat competent as a human has been sucked out. And I’ve got a phenomenal background. But I’m failing so