i'm lucky and when compared to most i really should not complain but, the prospect of 20 more years of this makes me sad and i don't think i can do it.
i work from home (chill dev job), my kids are in school, i live with family so cheap rent and even then i don't want to log in anymore. worse still i have over 100k+ in investments/savings, it just feels like i work to add money to the pile and nothing more, yet its not enough to retire or anything like that.
i just don't feel alive anymore i just feel like life is waking up to wait for others to tell you what you should be doing and im not free. i serve my boss, my family (all theirs crazy ideas i gotta figure out), my kids (well they are young 5 and 8 so makes sense), im not free to just do what i want with my time.
i don't feel like im working toward anything anymore either, before i was hussle hussle, work till you get the next better paying job and get the certs and get paid more… well im tired
what really kills me is i could just move to somewhere cheap, and make my savings last for years, just im trapped here (canada) as the best thing for my kids education is to stay here.
ex if i move to dominican republic (i could live there for 10k a year apparently, including rent and food), compared to here where im paying 5k a month, i wonder would i be happier though maybe. i just fed up with living here but its the best thing for everybody else that i stay here.
even if i left and did that for 5 years, find something part time there if i had too just it seems better than just sitting coding for next 5 years at my desk.