Just a rant.
I’m a 21 yr old living with my parents and I’m currently at a crossroads in regard to my life path. I was gonna study psychology and work as a therapist for other gay guys here in the states but I cut my studies short when I realized what I was up against. The debt I’ll amass from college will suck me in. I’m not saying college is easier in Germany but it seems like everyone I know that studies at our state college is stressed, broke, and realized they won’t use their degree too late. Everyone here lives on the edge. One health complication and you’re out. It will drain you of all your funds and the debt will kill you. And my conservative parents don’t see the issue.
It’s so troubling trying to figure out how I could go about this because of all the hoops one has to jump through. Therapy is not the same in Germany. I’m a foreigner. They mainly hire native Germans. The cost is still expensive for foreigners, despite affordable schooling. My German is strong for a foreigner at least and I seek to improve it on a language learning visa, but amassing the money needed (around 10k) alone is tiring. I don’t work 40 hour weeks because I haven’t had the life beaten out of me yet and I’m afraid of becoming a numb void of emotion. I really value my alone time. I wish I had the gumption to grind it out and get it done but I am honestly just trying to make it through these winter months. For the first time in my young life, the pay check isn’t enough anymore. $700 every two weeks is so little, I don’t know how. Bills just swallow it all up.
I am blessed with the opportunity to not fuck stuff up and maybe start a life somewhere with security but it’s just overwhelming at the moment.