With the pandemic opening up remote work to all I keep finding myself somehow losing positions that I work hard to get and want to keep.
Now I do have a history in lacking work ethic however this only ever comes after a place proves to me that they're as hollow as every other company I've been a part of and I take complete ownership of that. When that's the case my energy is focused towards finding a new gig.
What I'm getting at is that consistently at the 1 month mark I'm being told I'm not “a culture fit”, “meeting expectations”, “hitting KPI's”, etc. and this is all within the orientation and ramp up period!
What gives?
This has seriously put me towards the fuck work, companies, etc. and I'm feeling wildly adrift and don't feel like I can orient myself to stand back up.
I'm a software engineer (or at least I claim to be) without a formal background in the field and I really gotta say that being a part of the places I've been have lead me to despise the one thing that I have some grasp of and had some capacity to do.
But here we are. I don't think I've contributed any type of meaningful code into a codebase in a good chunk of time.
Either way I'm rambling while sitting it the bathroom trying to make sense of things. This last place pushed me so far and away from caring that I haven't even tried to do unemployment or even apply anywhere else.
What do I do? I get this is r/antiwork so any perspective would be helpful