I just graduated from college, Advertising.
I had two ok jobs/internships before the pandemic hit. After it did tho, my work life has been a mess.
I really haven’t been able to keep down a job.
I work corporate (client support) and it’s always remote. The jobs are so fucking easy and mindless, but I’m really bad at clocking in and out, taking a selfie every time I do it, keeping the GPS on my phone always on. It makes me angry. Everything makes me angry.
I also am a very expressive and open person so I have a hard time keeping up the facade of a “good worker”… So I got fired today, 45 days in, because I am “don’t inspire professional confidence”. Asked about my actual work and they deflected. I left.
I hate spending 9h everyday doing things for people I don’t know or care about, just waiting for weekends. I know this is “real life” but I don’t think I have the backbone to keep it up for 40+ years. I feel like I’ll never be able to provide for myself. I can’t shake the feeling that there’s something very wrong with me. People hate their jobs but they can keep them. I feel like a mess. I feel like I’m going to get blacklisted or something.
Being fired is so shameful… I couldn’t bring myself to tell anyone yet. I’m scared of the “WTF, AGAIN?”
Guess I am asking for encouragement and to hear from others that have been here 🙁